Wednesday, September 30, 2009

The Lake of Innisfree




I taught my classes a poem by Yeats, an Irish Laurette "The Lake Isle of Innesfree" today. Yeats spend most of his life in Ireland which he called home. Some scholars suggest that Innisfree is a place near Sligo, Ireland where he has spent most of his childhood whereas others say that Innisfree does not really exists and just exists in his mind. Whatever the theories are, we know that Innisfree is one place that he is longing to go in his life, the place where he finds his peace. To bring the poem closer to our personal life, we can say that Innisfree is a place where we really longsto go to, a place where we will find a peace of mind. Yeats Innisfree is in Ireland. My Innisfree is in Sydney (Nowra, Narrabeen , Manly, Mosman- i love North Sydney and the Northern Beaches). Where's your Innisfree? However, happiness is really a state of mind which does not always depend on where you are. What do you think about that?

The Lake Isle of Innisfree


I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made;
Nine bean rows will I have there, a hive for the honeybee,
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.
And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;
There midnight's all a-glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet's wings.

I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear the water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements gray,
I hear it in the deep heart's core.



William Butler Yeats, 1892

Monday, September 28, 2009

I gotta feeling that today's gonna be a good day!





Im so happyyyy  today.This is maybe the happiest day of the week for me. I went on facebook, not expecting any special message. Unexpectedly, he sent me one, and it is soooo sweet!One that says he wished i was online as it has been a while.(I speculate he's missed me! He never send me any message before!) I am so happy that I practically feel my body is so light as if I am floating above the ground! hehehe. Not to mention, Ive been smiling the whole time ever since I read it. And he left a sweet compliment to one of my picture on facebook too. Im so flattered!! hehe. Thats what he wrote, hehe.

Graeme Charles Stewart
Graeme Charles Stewart
woah crazy girl so jealous that snake looks beautiful and so do you ofcourse xoxo
 
But again, who's not flattered to get a compliment from a beautiful young guy. 
Oh god, save me from falling in love this time! But I know I have to be careful to not to fall in love with him as I do not want my life to end like Amy Robsart, suffer from unreturned love to her last breath.I want to fall for someone whom I am confident can keep his love for me forever! Which I do not know if possible since not many men are capable of loving just one women till his last breath.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

The Queen's Fool



I have been in bed the whole week this weak, suffered from a bad migraine. I managed to finish reading The Queen's Fool. It is about Hannah Green, a queen fool. I cried three times while reading the story. One of them is when Hannah learnt the fact about his husband (who is her bethroted)cheated on her and had sex with a Gentile and had a boy child with her. How faithless men can be! I can relate with Hannah Green, we have many things in common. And I can relate Robet Dudley, another character in the story ( a big name's in the Tudor court history), to Brendan. He has to read the novel to know why, which I doubt he will.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Walking Shadow



I saw him last night
again
existed so close to me
At the corner of my bedroom
I remembered
Waking up from the bed
walking towards him
try to reach his arms
for my heart longed to feel
the warmth of his skin again
But he seemed so unreachable
The closer I tried to get
He became more distanced
and finally dissapeared
And I woke up from my dream
With crystal drops on my eyes
to realize that it was just a dream
another beautiful nightmare
that haunted my unlived life.

Composed on 22th September 2009. Title: untitled...... any suggestion??

Down The Memory Lane.. my bestie acting retard!


I was looking at my old pictures and I found this one of Brendan and me! More accurately...Brendan playing retard...wonder if he did that with his gf, LoL!
This one is a better pic of him!

P.S. Sorry Bren for the publicly displaying your pictures! hehe =D

Monday, September 21, 2009

coloring


This is painted by my sister.I coloured it though! hehe.

My sketch






I was so bored, so I attempted sketching. It was supposed to be a beautiful lady, but ended up looked like a transgender person!lol.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Turning Bookworm

I've finally finished reading Rebecca and The Last Time They Met by American writer Anita Shreve. Now I'm reading a novel by Australian writer, Wayne Grogan " Vale Byron Bay". After finishing with this one, I still have 4 books to read, 3 of them from my favourite writer, Philippa Gregory. She English.....a good writer and a broadcaster. One of her novels The Other Boleyn Girl was made into a film in 2007 (i think). I have read The Other Boleyn Girl, its beautifully written like her other literary works. The Last The novel Ive read, Time They Met by Anita Shreve is a tragic love story, its about 2 lovers who were seperated and then met again after both of them have already married to someone else and there was no chance for reunion. Tragic, but in reality life doesnt always have a happy ending.Hopefully they would be some happy endings for me in the end.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Movies spree!!

Movies Ive seen so far in this week:-
i) The Final Destination
ii) District 9 (This one is cool....alien - human relationship, discussing disrimination against alien issues. Really a satyr!)
iii) The Ugly Truth ( was so happy to see this one, have waited for it to come out since June! Gerard Butler is so HOWT!)
iv) Orphan ( the most psycho neurotic movie ever!yuckk!!)
v)Seeing next: Gamer (Love Gerard Butler!)

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Fickle affection

 This one is dedicated to my best mates Adrian and Brendan as I know you would like this one (you would love the fact that Ive being dumped again, and this time by a high school kid)

I've being dumped by a high school kid!A few weeks ago he liked me so much (in term of student-teacher relationship that Im referring to!No romance involves!!!!!), then today when I saw him again at school, he didn't like me at all anymore!! Being dumped by a kid feels so......humiliating! and... funny in some ways! He's quite cute though......big prospect for him in the future i would say! Enough said, affection is always fickle...even among the kids. Good luck for the sweet boy though!

Nicknames


I have being called ......

i. Shorty : by David Harper ( bubu)
ii. Ring Ring: by bubu
iii. Fruity : by Caroline
iv. Sweaty:  by Jacob
v. Skippy: by Jacob
vi. SweatyShirtySkippy: by Jacob!!!
vii. Mon singe (Jeremy)

Anybody wants to add to the list??

Movie Plans

I went to see District 9 last night.It was such a cool movie though i felt it was a bit slow at the beginning. Wikus reminds me of one of the guys I used to know at uni, Alexandra Poupelard. He's a Frenchie, they both look alike...almost identical. lol. Im really looking forward to go watch some romcoms which Ive been planning to watch but just havent happened yet, " The Proposal" and "The Ugly Truth". I also would like to watch "Gamer", another one of Gerard Butler (He's Irish-I so like him!). These three are in my must-see lists! I watch a lot of movies when I am depressed! The days at the school have been so boring. One of my students whom I quite close to refused to talk to me anymore because he didnt think I am up to his expectation. Aghh its so hard to please everyone! Hopefully things will improve soon. I really hate tense situations. Loves it when everyone is in peace and we all could live in the moments =D. Till then, xoxo.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Dull weekend and Rebecca

I hate the fact that my weekend was dull and rather boring unlike my normal ones in Sydney. I miss going out to the beaches, going for a shopping spree on Pitt st. if not Chatswood Mall and going fishing. I also hate the fact that I was not spending my weekends with my bestfriends anymore. This weekend, I was just home all day reading a novel by Daphne duMurrier, a classic one entitled "Rebecca". The novel excites me. Probably because I could relate to the character in it. The novel is about a young girl who married a rich widow aged 42.The girl, Caroline's lack of self confidence and her feeling of inferiority in comparison to the husband's ex wife who was described to be "of advantage of a good breeding,beauty and brain" really relates to me in some ways. I kinda know Caroline's true feeling and what she was going through. Its true that girls like to compare themselves to their competitors and try to win but at the same time feeling insecure and inferior about themselves. I used to go through this a few times in my life. I used to feel so insecure about myself and always feel that I was not pretty enough for my bf. It is something that I cant help myself from doing! However, the most important value I think I learnt from the novel is the significance of being sensible and having a brain than just mere beauty. This is in fact supported in other works of literature like ones of Jane Austen, that men always think girls who are sensible and independent are more attractive to them.Even in my real life experiences I have learnt that men prefer girls who have a firm and unique opinion over something. And as Bren suggested that I should set a goal to work to in my current life to help me get over the past, I think I have decided to read more and become smarter so that I will be more of value to guys and at the same time increase my knowledge about the global world. Oh yeh, I think I should call Adrian today too! Its been a while since he called me last. I should maintain the courtesy by calling him this time! Plus I will always feel more motivated about my life after talking to him. He has a special power to motivate people really! But people motivates people in different ways.Adrian always say something good and positive and that what motivates me.My other friend, Brendan always criticize me, practically all the time!!! (P.s. didnt u Bren???) But it was not negative though, as they were positive criticism that I need to wake me up from my silly thoughts and dreams. He always give me a reality check! Im running out of idea of what to write, maybe I shall just as well stop here! Bye, I love you (whoever reading this)!!!

Monday, September 7, 2009

An MMS from Adrian, just saving it here so I wont lose it!!

Date: Mon Sep 7 09:45:14 2009
From: +61405404014
Subject: Weekend

Hey there. My weekend was ok actually. Went to a couple of school fairs - the pic is the excellent stage band at my old highschool - on Sat. On Sun celebrated fathers' day and my big sister's birthday and saw a cool 'ancient alien astronaut' documentary. How was yours?

Saturday, September 5, 2009

I miss Adrian

I was feeling so low the whole day today. Felt like the time was not moving at all. Im emotionally unstable. Im missing all my best friends. Especially Julie and Adrian. Julie has a boyfriend recently, she must be busy. Adrians single as usual and but he is busy practising his dance moves for some performance. He's my best friend, the person I would turn to about everything in life.I miss him so much. Its been a while now. =(

Friday, September 4, 2009

Aussie, Aussie, Aussie, Oi, oi, oi!!!



Read an online article about the top 10 world's most happiest cities. Sydney is ranked as the second most happiest city in the world after Rio De Jenairo and Melbourne comes fourth. Owh How I miss Darling Harbour and its scenes and all my best mates! How I miss my old job (it feels like heaven, people are so cool and i dont have to deal with kids which means no headaches!)! How I miss vegemite!How i miss Sportsgirl and Diva!How I miss my old hair! How I miss everything about Sydney!!!!!!!I was in Perth in May 2009, the vibe is different than Sydney even though it is in the same country, in OZ. I went to Melbourne for work in 2008 (a sponsored trip! its heaven! I love my old job!!!) for a week and Ive already felt homesick and wanna get back home (Sydney is home!). I kinda have figured out I cant really live else where than Sydney. It sucks that I have to live in Malaysia now. So my future plan would be as soon as I finish my work contract, I am so going back to Sydney for good.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Beautiful Nightmares


 
( Double Bay, Sydney 2008 with ex, David Harper)

Sweet Dreams or Beautiful Nightmares?

Every night I rush to my bed
with hopes that maybe I’ll get a chance to see you
When I close my eyes
I’m goin outta my head
Lost in a fairytale
Can you hold my hands and be my guide

Clouds filled with stars cover your skies
and I hope it rains
You’re the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't goin no where
Baby long as you're here
I’ll be floatin on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

I mention you when I say my prayers
I wrap you around all of my thoughts
Boy you my temporary high
I wish that when I wake up you’re there
So wrap your arms around me for real
and tell me you’ll stay by side

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
and I hope it rains
You’re the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't goin no where
Baby long as you're here
I’ll be floatin on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

Tattoo your name across my heart
So it will remain
Not even death could make us part
What kind of dream is this?

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare