Saturday, December 5, 2009

The quest for Mary Magdalene in “The Expected One” by Kathleen McGowan



“ History is not what happened. It is what is written.” McGowan explores the issue of the controversial real relationship between Mary Magdalene and Jesus and her real position in Christendom. She suggests that Mary Magdalene is not accurately and fairly potrayed in most of the Gospels. The author also indicates that the depictions of some other important women such as Salome in the gospels are also inaccurate and unjust. In the quest of truth about Mary Magdalene, the author has spent almost half of her life time traveling to capture and explore evidences related to her. Most of her findings however cannot be provided as academic references in the book to protect the security of the persons involved and also because most of the data are acquired orally from some trusted sources who believe in Mary Magdalene as well as claimed to know the real truths about her which are passed down from one generation to the next. One of the author’s findings which interests me is the documentary of the Cathars people. Their settlement is in Rennes-le-cheteau, in Languedoc region in France. The region is well famous for the tomb of a famous French artist named Pinus who is believed to be a member of a secret society that is formed to protect a document written by Mary Magdalene which depicts the events of crucifixion and about the disciples from her perspective. Another sacred document that is believed to be possessed by Mary Magdalene is the Book of Love which is written by Jesus Himself. There are also some who believe that the tomb hides a treasure from the Temple of Jurusalem. The Cathars are believed to descent from the Mary Magdalene and Jesus bloodline, from their first daughter Sarah-Tamar. The book of Love is protected by Mary Magdalene using some kind of alchemy to hide it from the dangerous parties until the time when an expected one has arrived. Some of the expected ones who are the bloodlines include some famous people in the history including Joan de Arc and Mary Antoinette. Other bloodlines include famous medieval artists such as Sandro Boticelli. However, the iconography of Mary Magdalene in arts and paintings deems its popularity in all time. Not only she is the famous subject among the medieval artists like Boticelli and Caraviaggo, but also among the modern Europeans such as Salvador Dali and Jean Cocteau. Mc Gowan suggests that “ one common thread runs through the vastly different portrayals of Mary Magdalene; she is depicted over and over again with the same props: a skull, said to represent penance ( repentance for John the Baptizer) , a book, believed to symbolize the Gospels, and the abalaster jar she used to anoint Jesus. Always she wears red- a tradition that reaches back into history (but is mistakenly believed to depict her as a harlot)”.

Mc Gowan also states that many excerpts from the Gospel has been used against her throughout centuries. This is merely caused by the false interpretations of the Gospels by some Christians who resent the truth about her as well as from some fail to see clearly beyond the printed words. One of the excerpts is “Now when Jesus was risen early the first day of the week, he appeared first to Mary Magdalene, out of whom he had cast seven devils.” (Mark Gospel 16:9). As explained by the author, the single line has led to extreme claims about Mary’s mental state, including books dedicated to the idea that she was either possessed by demons or mentally ill. However, the Arques’s (a place in France, near Le Rennes le Chateau) perspective that Jesus has healed Mary after she has been poisoned by a lethal concoction known as The Poison of Seven Devils , which is believed to originate from Asia, definitely can provide us with a more clear interpretation of the line.

Alongside with all the interesting and surprising findings by the author in the book, one thing I learnt is that faith cannot be argued academically because there are some things in faith that we cannot apply our logic to them such as in Pontius Pilate case when he tried to reason Jesus’s answers with his Greek logic. However, I believe that all of the religions existed in this world preach humanity and love as their core. Thus, no matter what color and creek we are and what belief we follow, we all should be united by love. For example, religions such as Islam and Christian, both preach their believers to love all human beings regardless of their color and belief. Thus, the moment we start fighting with each other is the moment we lose our sense of humanity and actually deviate ourselves from our religion with not even a fickle realization of it.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Tidal love



If there's any one person who has had experienced the worst in love, I'm pretty sure I am one of them. Throughout my life, I have taken a number of views on love. I had ventured into a lot of things just to try to understand love. But this, until I found out that it is almost impossible for a person to fully understand love as its complexity is beyond our predictability. Earlier, I used to think of a relationship as something that can be consistently and consciously controlled to work smoothly in the direction that we favour. However, experiences have taught me that it does not always work that way. There's always some bumpy roads along the way. As for now, I have come to understand of love and relationship as something that is so close to nature, in which it closely reflects the nature itself. Love is like tides. It always change unpredictably, in which sometimes without prior sign nor warning. This is equally the same to a relationship. Sometimes it feels like to be in a successful relationship is as difficult as sailing a boat in the ocean. To get it moving in the right direction, it involves many uncontrollable factors which can alter directly the direction of the wind and indirectly the direction to where the boat is moving. In most cases, a sailor has to wait for the wind to blow to get the boat moving, but the wind does not necessarily all the time blow in favour to the sailor's wish.In such cases, the only thing the sailor can do is to keep waiting patiently hoping that the temperature will change so that the wind will blow and move the boat into its prefered destination. Similarly, in a relationship, especially a long relationship, we often take some time off just to relax our mind after an occurence of a conflict in the relationship. Some of us even used the time to cool themselves as well as to reflect upon themselves. I always feel that reflecting upon our own self is a vital necessity in a relationship. It helps us to become concious of our own flaws in the relationship and determine the best strategies to tackle the problems that arise. Also, at some points in everyone's relationship, there will be a time where we are obliged to make an important decision regarding the relationship, our partner as well as ourselves. This is like when the sailor decide to row the boat closer to the shore while waiting for the wind to come back, instead of just merely waiting for the winds to blow again. Imagine if the sailor do not row and the wind is never back, he will never make it to the shore. Similarly, in a relationship, when the time come for a decision to be made, it has to be made regardless and running away from the problem is certainly not going to help. The only thing it will help is to make the problem becomes worst. Thus, it is more worth to take the challenge and fight the problem in order to save the relationship.

P.S. A thousand thanks to my mon cheri Jeremy for the efforts in looking for the picture as well as the title for this post.Your love will always light my inspiration.bisous.

Monday, October 19, 2009

A Thousand Splendid Suns




"A Thousand Splendid Suns" is a second novel by Khalled Hosseini, the author the international best seller which has been made into a movie, "The Kite Runner". It mainly discusses the issue of vast discrimination against women in Afghanistan. I sobbed and had t stop reading to calm myself down at least 3 times while I was reading the novel. It really touches my heart to learn how bad is women are being discriminated in Afghanistan.They were not granted access to education, were forced to marry a stranger at a certain age (in which in most circumstances the suitor is way older than the girls; for example Mariam, one of the main characters in the novel is forced to marry a man who is 20 years older than her, old enough to be her father!) and were denied from getting proper health care service in the hospital. If I were to live there, I probably could just survive only 5 minutes of my life there! The two main characters in the novel, Mariam and Laila are just two examples of Afghan women who have to suffer from the consequences of war and tradition (which is upheld by religious extremists in the country). The story really reminds me of how I should be thankful that even though there are many things in my life that upset me (for example for having to be far away from my friends and losing freedom), these things or circumstances are not comparable at all as to what Laila and Mariam are going through in their life; being forced to marry a stranger who is 20 years older than them, suffer from physical abuse from their husband (they share a husband, Mariam is the first wife and Laila is the second wife. Laila married Mariam's husband after she lost both of her parents from war and because he was being tricked by Mariam's husband, Rasheed), being beaten from walking on the street without a "Mahrim" (husband) just to get to see her 7 year-old daughter at the orphanage and having to see their parents tragic deaths at an early age( Mariam's mother commited suicide by hanging herself from a tree; Laila's parents died from war, Laila saw her father's headless torso flying in the air from their bombed house).

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Pressies

These are the presents that I received from my little boys, I almost went into tears when they gave me all these. I had no idea how much they really loved me before.


I did a farewell party for them on my last day. I brought them some doughnouts and a cake. Glad they enjoyed the party! I so miss them all now!!



These are the pictures from the party!


(From the left: Thibaan, Mitvindra, Sureswaran, Danish,  New Jone, Sanjivan Gabriel, Harinder, Jacky Chan)


(Sanjivan, Oliver Chiam, Deva, Weleon, Shahrul, Harinder)


(My boys with the hamper they gave me: Harinder, Deva, Sanjivan)



                                                  ( Sureswaran, Rajarajeswaran)

(Ahmad Shafiq, Harinder, Sanjivan, Shahrul)

This is the party from another class I taught form 1Tekun (1T).


(Chunkit, Asadullah, Fahim, Sanjeev Raj)




(Syafawie, Basilius, Sureshkumar, Syamil, Naim, Alimi)

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Reading like a Vampire

I started to read a lot like a Vampire  (like a vampire cause I read from midnight till dawn , ah well at least like Edward Cullen, haha!). I finally finished reading The Other Queen by Philippa Gregory. A really interesting story about the raising plots mainly in Northern parts of England which are aimed to dethroned Queen Elizabeth and put Queen Mary of Scots on the throne instead. It ventures the possibility of how men can easily be deceived by good looks or beauty. Yesterday I went shopping and book 4 books, all of them are literature piece, one of them is a great work of the legendary Jack Keruoac, On The Road which I am so excited to start reading! Im guessing this one would be similar in its theme with one of the Aussie writer Wayne Grogan Vale Byron Bay. I got 2 books of the writers J.D. Salinger and Ken Kessey free with my purchase of Jack Keruoac! And another book I bought is The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde. I also borrowed some books from the library, one of them is my favourite novel the Wuthering Heigh by Emily Bronte. Hopefully I can finish reading them all during the weekend.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

My cuz



This is my cuz, he's my childhood crush. hehe. And I think he looks a little bit like my friend, James's little brother, Graeme.

Graeme is the one in the middle, the one in grey-ish shirt. 

Last Day in School

Yesterday was my last day teaching the boys at the school. And today here I am, in my little room, sobbing over the facts that I might not see some of them anymore at all. I have grown myself used to them, I remember the name of each of them,  I even remember some of the students by their full names.I received some pressies from some students, even from the class that I did not taught! I am happy to know that at least some of them if not all really appreciate and love me the way I love them.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

The Lake of Innisfree




I taught my classes a poem by Yeats, an Irish Laurette "The Lake Isle of Innesfree" today. Yeats spend most of his life in Ireland which he called home. Some scholars suggest that Innisfree is a place near Sligo, Ireland where he has spent most of his childhood whereas others say that Innisfree does not really exists and just exists in his mind. Whatever the theories are, we know that Innisfree is one place that he is longing to go in his life, the place where he finds his peace. To bring the poem closer to our personal life, we can say that Innisfree is a place where we really longsto go to, a place where we will find a peace of mind. Yeats Innisfree is in Ireland. My Innisfree is in Sydney (Nowra, Narrabeen , Manly, Mosman- i love North Sydney and the Northern Beaches). Where's your Innisfree? However, happiness is really a state of mind which does not always depend on where you are. What do you think about that?

The Lake Isle of Innisfree


I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made;
Nine bean rows will I have there, a hive for the honeybee,
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.
And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;
There midnight's all a-glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet's wings.

I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear the water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements gray,
I hear it in the deep heart's core.



William Butler Yeats, 1892

Monday, September 28, 2009

I gotta feeling that today's gonna be a good day!





Im so happyyyy  today.This is maybe the happiest day of the week for me. I went on facebook, not expecting any special message. Unexpectedly, he sent me one, and it is soooo sweet!One that says he wished i was online as it has been a while.(I speculate he's missed me! He never send me any message before!) I am so happy that I practically feel my body is so light as if I am floating above the ground! hehehe. Not to mention, Ive been smiling the whole time ever since I read it. And he left a sweet compliment to one of my picture on facebook too. Im so flattered!! hehe. Thats what he wrote, hehe.

Graeme Charles Stewart
Graeme Charles Stewart
woah crazy girl so jealous that snake looks beautiful and so do you ofcourse xoxo
 
But again, who's not flattered to get a compliment from a beautiful young guy. 
Oh god, save me from falling in love this time! But I know I have to be careful to not to fall in love with him as I do not want my life to end like Amy Robsart, suffer from unreturned love to her last breath.I want to fall for someone whom I am confident can keep his love for me forever! Which I do not know if possible since not many men are capable of loving just one women till his last breath.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

The Queen's Fool



I have been in bed the whole week this weak, suffered from a bad migraine. I managed to finish reading The Queen's Fool. It is about Hannah Green, a queen fool. I cried three times while reading the story. One of them is when Hannah learnt the fact about his husband (who is her bethroted)cheated on her and had sex with a Gentile and had a boy child with her. How faithless men can be! I can relate with Hannah Green, we have many things in common. And I can relate Robet Dudley, another character in the story ( a big name's in the Tudor court history), to Brendan. He has to read the novel to know why, which I doubt he will.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Walking Shadow



I saw him last night
again
existed so close to me
At the corner of my bedroom
I remembered
Waking up from the bed
walking towards him
try to reach his arms
for my heart longed to feel
the warmth of his skin again
But he seemed so unreachable
The closer I tried to get
He became more distanced
and finally dissapeared
And I woke up from my dream
With crystal drops on my eyes
to realize that it was just a dream
another beautiful nightmare
that haunted my unlived life.

Composed on 22th September 2009. Title: untitled...... any suggestion??

Down The Memory Lane.. my bestie acting retard!


I was looking at my old pictures and I found this one of Brendan and me! More accurately...Brendan playing retard...wonder if he did that with his gf, LoL!
This one is a better pic of him!

P.S. Sorry Bren for the publicly displaying your pictures! hehe =D

Monday, September 21, 2009

coloring


This is painted by my sister.I coloured it though! hehe.

My sketch






I was so bored, so I attempted sketching. It was supposed to be a beautiful lady, but ended up looked like a transgender person!lol.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Turning Bookworm

I've finally finished reading Rebecca and The Last Time They Met by American writer Anita Shreve. Now I'm reading a novel by Australian writer, Wayne Grogan " Vale Byron Bay". After finishing with this one, I still have 4 books to read, 3 of them from my favourite writer, Philippa Gregory. She English.....a good writer and a broadcaster. One of her novels The Other Boleyn Girl was made into a film in 2007 (i think). I have read The Other Boleyn Girl, its beautifully written like her other literary works. The Last The novel Ive read, Time They Met by Anita Shreve is a tragic love story, its about 2 lovers who were seperated and then met again after both of them have already married to someone else and there was no chance for reunion. Tragic, but in reality life doesnt always have a happy ending.Hopefully they would be some happy endings for me in the end.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Movies spree!!

Movies Ive seen so far in this week:-
i) The Final Destination
ii) District 9 (This one is cool....alien - human relationship, discussing disrimination against alien issues. Really a satyr!)
iii) The Ugly Truth ( was so happy to see this one, have waited for it to come out since June! Gerard Butler is so HOWT!)
iv) Orphan ( the most psycho neurotic movie ever!yuckk!!)
v)Seeing next: Gamer (Love Gerard Butler!)

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Fickle affection

 This one is dedicated to my best mates Adrian and Brendan as I know you would like this one (you would love the fact that Ive being dumped again, and this time by a high school kid)

I've being dumped by a high school kid!A few weeks ago he liked me so much (in term of student-teacher relationship that Im referring to!No romance involves!!!!!), then today when I saw him again at school, he didn't like me at all anymore!! Being dumped by a kid feels so......humiliating! and... funny in some ways! He's quite cute though......big prospect for him in the future i would say! Enough said, affection is always fickle...even among the kids. Good luck for the sweet boy though!

Nicknames


I have being called ......

i. Shorty : by David Harper ( bubu)
ii. Ring Ring: by bubu
iii. Fruity : by Caroline
iv. Sweaty:  by Jacob
v. Skippy: by Jacob
vi. SweatyShirtySkippy: by Jacob!!!
vii. Mon singe (Jeremy)

Anybody wants to add to the list??

Movie Plans

I went to see District 9 last night.It was such a cool movie though i felt it was a bit slow at the beginning. Wikus reminds me of one of the guys I used to know at uni, Alexandra Poupelard. He's a Frenchie, they both look alike...almost identical. lol. Im really looking forward to go watch some romcoms which Ive been planning to watch but just havent happened yet, " The Proposal" and "The Ugly Truth". I also would like to watch "Gamer", another one of Gerard Butler (He's Irish-I so like him!). These three are in my must-see lists! I watch a lot of movies when I am depressed! The days at the school have been so boring. One of my students whom I quite close to refused to talk to me anymore because he didnt think I am up to his expectation. Aghh its so hard to please everyone! Hopefully things will improve soon. I really hate tense situations. Loves it when everyone is in peace and we all could live in the moments =D. Till then, xoxo.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Dull weekend and Rebecca

I hate the fact that my weekend was dull and rather boring unlike my normal ones in Sydney. I miss going out to the beaches, going for a shopping spree on Pitt st. if not Chatswood Mall and going fishing. I also hate the fact that I was not spending my weekends with my bestfriends anymore. This weekend, I was just home all day reading a novel by Daphne duMurrier, a classic one entitled "Rebecca". The novel excites me. Probably because I could relate to the character in it. The novel is about a young girl who married a rich widow aged 42.The girl, Caroline's lack of self confidence and her feeling of inferiority in comparison to the husband's ex wife who was described to be "of advantage of a good breeding,beauty and brain" really relates to me in some ways. I kinda know Caroline's true feeling and what she was going through. Its true that girls like to compare themselves to their competitors and try to win but at the same time feeling insecure and inferior about themselves. I used to go through this a few times in my life. I used to feel so insecure about myself and always feel that I was not pretty enough for my bf. It is something that I cant help myself from doing! However, the most important value I think I learnt from the novel is the significance of being sensible and having a brain than just mere beauty. This is in fact supported in other works of literature like ones of Jane Austen, that men always think girls who are sensible and independent are more attractive to them.Even in my real life experiences I have learnt that men prefer girls who have a firm and unique opinion over something. And as Bren suggested that I should set a goal to work to in my current life to help me get over the past, I think I have decided to read more and become smarter so that I will be more of value to guys and at the same time increase my knowledge about the global world. Oh yeh, I think I should call Adrian today too! Its been a while since he called me last. I should maintain the courtesy by calling him this time! Plus I will always feel more motivated about my life after talking to him. He has a special power to motivate people really! But people motivates people in different ways.Adrian always say something good and positive and that what motivates me.My other friend, Brendan always criticize me, practically all the time!!! (P.s. didnt u Bren???) But it was not negative though, as they were positive criticism that I need to wake me up from my silly thoughts and dreams. He always give me a reality check! Im running out of idea of what to write, maybe I shall just as well stop here! Bye, I love you (whoever reading this)!!!

Monday, September 7, 2009

An MMS from Adrian, just saving it here so I wont lose it!!

Date: Mon Sep 7 09:45:14 2009
From: +61405404014
Subject: Weekend

Hey there. My weekend was ok actually. Went to a couple of school fairs - the pic is the excellent stage band at my old highschool - on Sat. On Sun celebrated fathers' day and my big sister's birthday and saw a cool 'ancient alien astronaut' documentary. How was yours?

Saturday, September 5, 2009

I miss Adrian

I was feeling so low the whole day today. Felt like the time was not moving at all. Im emotionally unstable. Im missing all my best friends. Especially Julie and Adrian. Julie has a boyfriend recently, she must be busy. Adrians single as usual and but he is busy practising his dance moves for some performance. He's my best friend, the person I would turn to about everything in life.I miss him so much. Its been a while now. =(

Friday, September 4, 2009

Aussie, Aussie, Aussie, Oi, oi, oi!!!



Read an online article about the top 10 world's most happiest cities. Sydney is ranked as the second most happiest city in the world after Rio De Jenairo and Melbourne comes fourth. Owh How I miss Darling Harbour and its scenes and all my best mates! How I miss my old job (it feels like heaven, people are so cool and i dont have to deal with kids which means no headaches!)! How I miss vegemite!How i miss Sportsgirl and Diva!How I miss my old hair! How I miss everything about Sydney!!!!!!!I was in Perth in May 2009, the vibe is different than Sydney even though it is in the same country, in OZ. I went to Melbourne for work in 2008 (a sponsored trip! its heaven! I love my old job!!!) for a week and Ive already felt homesick and wanna get back home (Sydney is home!). I kinda have figured out I cant really live else where than Sydney. It sucks that I have to live in Malaysia now. So my future plan would be as soon as I finish my work contract, I am so going back to Sydney for good.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Beautiful Nightmares


 
( Double Bay, Sydney 2008 with ex, David Harper)

Sweet Dreams or Beautiful Nightmares?

Every night I rush to my bed
with hopes that maybe I’ll get a chance to see you
When I close my eyes
I’m goin outta my head
Lost in a fairytale
Can you hold my hands and be my guide

Clouds filled with stars cover your skies
and I hope it rains
You’re the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't goin no where
Baby long as you're here
I’ll be floatin on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

I mention you when I say my prayers
I wrap you around all of my thoughts
Boy you my temporary high
I wish that when I wake up you’re there
So wrap your arms around me for real
and tell me you’ll stay by side

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
and I hope it rains
You’re the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't goin no where
Baby long as you're here
I’ll be floatin on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

Tattoo your name across my heart
So it will remain
Not even death could make us part
What kind of dream is this?

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare

Sunday, August 30, 2009

The man who can't be moved


(Model: Shane O'toole, just because he's Irish and also a dickhead! Right: May 2009, Bintang Walk, Kuala Lumpur)

Song: The man who can't be moved

Some people try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "son you can't stay here"
I said, "there's someone I'm waiting for If it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe i'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
cuase you'll know it's just for you
Im the man who can't be moved


Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move


This is one of my favourites, the lyric is just beautiful....... a song by The Script, an Irish band. Probably one of the case of love at the first sight. Some people might not believed in love at the first sight. But I have experienced some, the feeling was beautiful but in my case it never did bring me anywhere. For example, the one I had with Shane. They are beautiful....but only for a little while. Had so much fun with Shane at the beginning till it turned to be crappy towards the end and I smashed my phone for him, not to mention!!However some are really inspiring, like the one with Jacob. Love is indeed an evil angel as Shakespeare said! Till then, xoxo.  


Saturday, August 29, 2009

All the single ladies, put your hands up!!!



Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love, well, that's just fabulous ( Carrie, Sex and the City). 


I choose to agree with Carrie. I have learnt from experiences that self-esteem and confidence are the most significant ingredients to attract a man. You got to love and trust yourself first before expecting others to trust you. Besides, as love and relationships come and go in the way that we never expected, its always good to just to rely on ourselves instead of men.Single life sometimes  could be more fun and exciting then you ever expected it to be!For example, would you whistle some hot guys on the beach with your girlfriends if you have a boyfriend? And not to mention, you will have heaps of opportunities to get to know more people while you are single since you have most of the time to yourself. Like I met my new friend, Jacob who really inspired me to write and to express myself (we mostly spent time talking about literature and his childhood experience), Nicola, who is always sweet and supportive and Irene, who is like a mother to me. Also, you have an ample of time to do more inspirational and productive things in your life like reading and writing which you probably do not have much time to do so before. . And for guys, if you are reading this, it works just the same for you too!!! So everyone,keep your chin up and be happy, being single does not always mean it's the end of the world! =) Till then, xoxo.


                          


                                       (jacob corner in white shirt)



Friday, August 28, 2009

Thoughts on love

                                           (Valentine 2008: Bouquet for David)

They do not love that do not show their love.
The course of true love never did run smooth.
Love is a familiar. Love is a devil. There is no evil angel but Love.
-- William Shakespeare

This is so true. The course of love indeed never did run smooth. One minute you are so much in love with a person and feels so much connected to the person, the next minute you realize you just do not know the person anymore at all. Love is a familiar. Sometimes you find yourself doing anything just to fall in love. Some travel the world just to be with the person they love. And I am one of them. Some just do not realise that they are in love.
Love is a devil. It makes you do things you never imagine yourself doing for love.Like I rushed from Paramatta to Turramurra at 11 p.m after a call just to be with my ex when he needed me the most (He was ill!).You could be in love with a person who is not at all your type of guy, but who cares, love is too sweet to let go! But one thing for sure is that even though love might comes and goes as swiftly as the wind, but it never leave you nothing. There will always be one sweet thing in every love story you ever have in your life. Some loves resolves into friendships.A clear example is Brendan and me There is a lesson learnt from every love story in one's life. And the most greatest thing one could do for someone they love is to sacrifice and to learn to let go. Let it go and if it comes back, it will be yours forever and if not, its not worth chasing. xoxo.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

More hugs= less stress

This is just something I read that I want to share. Whether you believe it or not, intimate acts such as hugging and kissing can lower the level of stress. This is proven by some researches conducted at the University of Zurich in Switzerland. Of the 51 couples who took part in the study, those who had more physical contact had decreased levels of so-called stress hormone cortisol in their saliva. The lead author of the report believes intimacy improve hormones level because it's a mood booster. How exciting, no wonder people who are in love are always happy!! And that's Aaron Rose and Serena Van der Woodsen from the Gossip Girl, aren't they lovely? =)

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

how could i miss Russell in Malaysia!!



I was passing time surfing about russell tonite. To my surprise, I found some photos from his diary on his fanpage from his visit to Malaysia. If only i knew he was in Malaysia, I would kill for a chance to have a picture with him. He's a genius! Read a bit from his "Booky Wook" which is banned in Malaysia unfortunately during my work trip in Perth in May and totally loving it! Too bad its not on sale in Malaysia! It' s weird as if there's no other book in the stores who do not publish x-rated stories. Pretty sure not all publications especially books go through proper scanning for the contents. Saw a book on gay relationship and sex the other day when i was window shopping with one of my mates from UK, Jacob. Is it fair to ban only certain books? I am so getting "My Booky Wook" regardless!!!!! Love you Russell!

A vision on becoming a writer

Among all the great things that I dream of doing in my life, becoming a writer is one of them. Like today, I had a crazy vision about writing a fiction from the point of view of a dead person. But when i told my best friend, Brendan on msn about my brilliant idea, he said that theres something wrong with the story. Guess what is wrong? It is totally the same view as in Desperate Housewives!! I didn't really watch the show but the fact that the idea was just the same as in the show, that shows the similarity of my thoughts with whoever who write the story, and hence whatever crazy thoughts i have in my mind are not completely useless!